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Humble beginnings...


     بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمَانِ الرَّحِيم 

The dream...

About a year and a bit ago
I had a dream.
I was on a bus and as though I was on a tour with people we arrived somewhere that looked like the grand Colosseum on the outside..
It had old broken walls and I remember seeing a horse with a rider on it suspended within its walls
I know that’s really weird, but alas.. such are dreams..
But that wasn't the strangest thing about this place, indeed the strangest thing about it was that beyond those old mud-brick broken tall walls,
was the Ka'ba.
Scholars say the first dua you supplicate to Allah upon sighting the Ka'ba is a 100% guaranteed-to-be-granted dua
So what better dua to make than "O Allah accept all my duas!"?
I can still hear Umm Abdur Rahmans voice saying this so emphatically:
This is tijara (trade) with Allah, and Allah loves that we trade with Him.
So there I was in my dream, looking at the ka'ba and I recited in Arabic
"Allahuma ij'alni mim mustajibaat ad da’waat.."
O Allah make me of those whose supplications are accepted..

Now my Arabic is pretty weak, I'm not sure if I had said it correctly in Arabic with the right vowel-ing and the right pronunciation.. But that's what I said in the dream subhanAllah...

I was so ecstatic to have had a dream like that... Truly, it made me feel so elated; what a blessed dream from Allah! I couldn't but help but have a small tiny blinker of hope in the back of my mind that perhaps Allah will accept all my du'as because I saw the Ka'ba and made that dua, albeit in my dream! Why? Because me being anywhere in the vicinity of the real Ka'ba in Makkah Al Mukarramah didn’t ever cross my mind, I never imagined myself there- seriously... I have pictures of the ka’ba all over my room, it’s all over my Islamic calendar, every month I flip admire it and that’s about as close as I ever got to the real deal, It's strange but I don't think I even dreamed of going there, realistically speaking, how could I, I am a uni student, I’m poor most of the time, I’m in exams nearly every month, whenever I go overseas it’s straight to Egypt to visit the family, my adorable teta and then back to Australia.. I mean seriously people, I’ve been in Australia for 22 years and I haven’t even gone to Queensland which for any Arab living in Sydney that's a strange thing! So Makkah? Yeah right.. 

Where things get interesting...

Buuuuuuuuut then something very interesting happened...
My older sister decided she'd go on Hajj that year- 2010...
Quite random, out of the blue, really sporadic but that’s my sister for you, she just puts something in her mind and does it, mashaAllah.
I, for some reason decided I wanted to go with her to her Hajj preparation course organised by Daar Aisha- my Shari’ah college coz that’s who she was going with
And honest to God
I cried my eyes out when Umm Abdur Rahman spoke about Madinah and described it
Thats when it really hit me
She’s going with my beloved Shari’ah college
and I wasn’t.
Wow, no words could describe that moment.
I couldn't go because I was
1. A student living on a student budget for the past 5 years
2. I had exams during the 2010 Hajj season for my last semester of my Masters degree-
but really 1. is where the dream crumbled at.. 2. was just adding salt to the wound.

It burnt pretty bad. I couldn’t fathom that someone so close to me, who shared a wall with me to be quite exact, was about to go to the two places I didn’t even dream were possible of going to. She had obliterated the impossibility that I was sitting and nesting on so feverently and it was almost as though Allah had shown me through her going; that Makkah and Madinah are a reality for anyone He Wills.
Truly this dunya isn’t about cause and effect- Allah will make any cause cause any effect- whether it’s logical to us or not. It felt like Allah was saying to me, if I want someone to come to My House, I will bring them,
believe it.

Then I thought khalas! 2011 is my year! I mean heck, If my sister goes this year there is *no*way*jose* I’m not going next year!

I set my one year short term master plan it was the cause and effect logic ms plan-it-all kinda plan.
At the time I finished my master of Pharmacy; I had to do one year of paid intern training to get registered as a pharmacist. I'll secure my year long internship and work long ugly hours (by force anyway) and save up and go at the end of the year..
Sounds all good yeah?
Hmm..

Salt on my open gaping wound!

It was by Allah's Will that I didn't end up getting an intern position.
I was in Egypt from December 2010 till March 2011 and that is when they were taking all the interns and so I came back and missed out...
I tried looking for a position for 7 months..
Pain was the name of the game.
And as the 2011 Hajj season crept in..
I lost all hope of me going...
2011 wasn't to be my year after all..
No words to describe the feeling.

Then, as if that wasn't bad enough,
I kept getting emailed by Daar Aisha (my Shari'ah college) constantly advertising the 2011 Al Haramain Hajj package..
It was soooooo painful, I'd go to class and Umm Abdur Rahman (Umm AR) would happily announce and keep announcing the package, “Hajj Haramain package is open for 2011!”
I was so cut. 

My Most Generous King


You won’t believe how many things you want from Allah
till you write it all down!

Ramadan crept in that year and I thought, khalas I’m just gonna make dua
One night I went on a feverish writing spree, I was like wow! I have tons of dua to make, I think I’ll just write it all out so I don’t miss anything- it's Ramadan, gates are open! Perfect opportunity!
I compiled one rather unexpectedly long dua
That turned into a booklet,
9A4 pages to be exact
I know. lol. 
I heard some beautiful du’a qunut during Ramadan at Omar mosque in Auburn by Sheikh Omar El-Banna and although I lived one hour away, better believe I went there a few nights in a row just to hear his bismillah mashaAllah beautiful Quran recitation and record it and record that du’a al Qunut he made!
It.was.so.beautiful.

I’ll eat a horse!

Among my duas I had asked Allah to PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE grant me the opportunity to go on Hajj with Daar Aisha and Ahbab al Mustapha! I figured I’ve grown up with Daar Aisha on and off for 5 years studying with them, I didn’t think Hajj would be the same with any other group, and anyone that goes on Hajj with Ahbab al Mustapha will have the most amazing bus ride entertainment and waiting periods ever! Nasheeds by the best nasheed group in the world, who could ask for anything more? Ask for the impossible from Allah, and just wait for it.. 
I made the dua even though Hajj was just around the corner and I was broke as broke as could be and still couldn’t find a job :(

A few nights pass and I had gone to tarawih with baba at the local mosque.
On the way back he said to me...
Shayma, don't tell anyone yet..
but I'm thinking of sending you off to Hajj this year.
*shocked face*
I was like OMG baba are you serious!?
Imagine that was a joke lol
He was off course serious...
But you can imagine how shocked I was!
He said, on one condition though..
whathawhrawahwihawiaehwihawwhatA!? what's the condition!?
Eat proper food.. lol
Yeah ok! I'll eat a horse! Anything you say dad! Heck I’ll eat 10! No worries! Done deal! Let’s shake on it! You grab the horses I’ll grab the butcher on my way to my luggage bags! Done deal! sealed, signed, packaged and delivered! OhMyGod!

So there I was poor unemployed university graduate on my way to Hajj! lol Seriously, miracle or what? My brothers chipped in too..
So I can with all honesty say I have the best brothers and dad in the world!
No one can take that title except them.
No one! 
Alhamdulilah! *weehee*

Oh and my younger brother- Mohammed- who is older than me by a year was coming along too.

The annual pattern...

So here my big trip begins!
I go to the Daar Aisha prep course in 2011,
but this time it's for me subhanAllah *tear*
We had girls in the class attend but they weren’t going on Hajj, and they were really upset hearing all about it and knowing they weren’t going to go.
But Umm AR said, I’ve had girls attend the preparation course one year and the next year they were with me, and that has been the pattern with her every year.
When Allah sees that desire in you He will write it for You.
I was one of those girls.
SubhanAllah! Allahu Akbar!

          The big weigh in!

Umm AR said when we pack our bags, we pack them lightly because our luggage is essentially our sins... You wanna lug around 30kg of sins, up to you, you wanna lug around less, good for you.. Hajj is a spiritual journey, you don’t need fancy copious amounts of clothes...  I kept this in mind and I am seriously competitive, so I was really keen to see how little I could pack lol.

Comes the night before we were due to fly and me being me, that’s when I decided to start packing
I was a little panicked to be honest, it was 2am and I was like omG I can’t figure what to take and what not to take,
I had one of those little hand bags with the rollers on it and I said I’m not taking anything bigger
I had taken a bit of clothes and whatever toiletries.

Next morning came and we were supposed to be at the airport at 1pm, our flight was at 4.
But me and my brother being the Arabs that we are, we left the house at 2 only to arrive at the airport at 3 lol
We were the last people to arrive and the last people to check in
Which was actually what I considered at the time to be quite the blessing, subhanAllah, I was like wow, things are easy already, no waiting in lines no stress, just straight to the counter  while all the early birds nervously wait around for the call to go in to the departure zone..
I was nervous at the weigh in.. funny, but true.. I was really hoping I would win the weigh in for the least luggage ever.
I had 8kg of luggage, lol, I thought, YEHES! Soon as I was done I went to ask my nearest friend how much her bag weighed, it was more; I’m so lame because I know my competitive edge was happy at that moment. I breathed a sigh of relief. *so lame of me*

We hung around for a little longer... Not much to do... Everyone looked so new to me, I’m quite familiar with the community here, but they all looked so different and new... Our call came in, people went to the departure zone and me and my bro said bye to a teary mother and happy father and we waved good bye, thinking wow, I may not actually return to see them.. Such a real possibility, I didn’t cry surprisingly, I don’t think I really fathomed the fact- not then and not even later- that I was actually still going after a year of seeing my dream squashed and annihilated right before my minds teary eyes!

We begin our flight, 14 hours to Abu Dhabi get off pray say hello to some hujaj were all staring at each other in wonderment and amazement, I think we were all looking at each other thinking, O your one of some 2,3,4,5, million that have the same blessing as me... Wow, nice to meet you too..

Then we wait around for the flight to Jeddah and were there in the departure lounge in Abu Dhabi airport early- for once, I’m striking up a conversation with a sister who was with us, now let’s put it this way, I live out in whoop whoop, I don’t exactly live in the hustle and bustle of Sydney city,  I mean, I used to see cows and sheep on the way to work where I live and my friends hardly ever come over because it’s just too far, they get scared seeing so much bushes and trees that they’d rather not come over at all lol... So the fact that I was talking to a sister who lived 2 streets down from where I lived and we had never met till this day was quite the surprise for me! SubhanAllah. 

Umar bin Khattab street!


Patience!!

All goes well, we arrive in Jeddah airport and we get transported to the Hujaj airport next door, only Hujaj enter here, left right and centre everyone calls you hajji *me a hajji *aw!tear*

We enter just before fajr adhan and were lining up to give in our passports to the Saudi administration workers... At this point umm AR- who doesn’t know how many times shes been on Hajj mashaAllah nor how many groups she’s taken around, is telling us that the wait is going to be long, last year they waited hours and hours to get sorted and hand in the passports.. That we should have patience it’s all about being grateful nonetheless it’s a gift alone that your here, appreciate it and prepare yourself because hajj is all about patience. 

We pass through in 5 minutes.
No joke.
What?
5 mins. 

At this point umm AR is rather shocked lol
We enter, make wudu and pray fajr at this point I donned the niqaab, if you know me, you’ll know I look for annnnnnny excuse to put it on, Saudi was a definite yes, yes.
It feels so incredibly good to be covered and invisible to people and known only to Allah,
people will look at me and I will be like a passing shadow to them
the concentration wasn’t on my appearance or my hijab or my distinct facial features or my cultural identity
the wow factor- I wonder where she’s from
her features are so different to mine
all that didn’t matter,
all that mattered was me to Allah
and Allah to me
This is the most liberating feeling.

After we pray we gather around for Umm AR to give us the big prep talk. She tells us here, definitely here at he Hujaj airport, were in for a loooooong wait; last year they waited 9 hours for the buses to come take them.
& first stop is.. 
Madinah Al-Munawwarah!
Allahu Akbar!
So girls stay patient, because where are we going?
We’re going to visit the messenger of Allah,
SubhanAllah
Rasul Allah Sallalahu Alayhiwasalam,
The most beloved man to Allah
Whose name is engraved on the ‘arsh of Allah!
Who when we testify to the Oneness of Allah, we testify that he is His Messenger
His name is simultaneously remembered next to the name of Allah!
This is who we are going to visit.
So there has to be a sacrifice,
prepare yourselves with lots of salawaat on him,
Madinah is all about salawat on the messenger,
This is his city.
His blessed city,
His beautiful city full of light upon light.
This is where he resides
Khatam an Nabeyeen- The Seal of prophets
Wa Imam al muttaqeen-The leader of the Righteously God fearing
The one not sent but as a Mercy to mankind! 
SubhanAllah
Would you not be patient for something like that?
Would you not wait on the outskirts of Madinah for one thousand years if you knew after that wait you would enter to visit him and his sacred city?
The city of Revelation
The city of Victory
The sanctified purified city- the Haram that none enter except those who are physically and spiritually purified.
Patience girls. Prepare your hearts.

The buses arrived in 4 hours.
Lol.
Yeah no literally, 4 hours.
MashaAllah!

Nothing is impossible in Madinah!

Umm AR is shocked yet again.
We had enough time to sit around chat, convert money, eat, pray and I continue my 33,000 salawaat on the Messenger that I had been assigned to do by my Sheikh Al Habib Umar bin Hafeedh.

Allahumma sallai ‘ala              O Allah send prayers             
sayyiduna Muhammad-               upon our Master Muhammad
Nurikas Sarri-                                    Your effusive light
Wa madadika al Jari-                             And flowing aid
Wajma’na bihi fi kulli atwaari-     And unite me with him in all of my states
Wa ‘ala aalihi was Sahbihi-       and similarly (bless )his folk and companions
Ya Noor-                                                  O Light!

My plan was to get 10,000 done during my 8 day stay in Madinah. Sound impossible to do 10,000 of those^? Aha, but I had a trick up my sleeve ;) 

We had 3 buses waiting for us.

We all organised ourselves and got onto our buses,
Makkah is close to Jeddah,
So the distance from Jeddah to Madinah was roughly the same as from Makkah to Madinah,
Umm AR said here on our journey, we should appreciate the Hijrah that Rasulullah sallalahualayhiwasalam had made with the sahaba and Abu Bakr to the city of Madinah
This desert we were about to pass was the desert that they passed on foot
Were sitting in air conditioned comfortable buses carrying our luggage
They passed under the hot Arabian sun in the scorching heat
Leaving all their possessions behind
Nothing in their hands but the reliance on Allah
Nervous at the apprehension from behind and from in front
SubhanAllah

 Apparantly it would take 17 hours to get to Madinah as was the case last year...
We stopped over at a rest area had a bite, prayed dhuhr and asr
Got on again
and continued on towards the blessed city
We stopped over to pick up our little hujaj free food packages, CD’s tapes, fans and other nick nacks as part of Saudi hospitality mashaAllah...
I kept reciting my salawaat,
stopping sometimes to read my Quran,
stopping at others admiring the desert view from my window
thinking of the hijrah,
seeing a lonesome beautiful young white camel running in the desert
kicking up dust almost looking as though it was doing it in slow motion
I wished it was mine!
I slept a bit
Comes the sunset behind the desert mountains,
and it was an unforgettable sight
I stared in admiration at the artistic beauty of Allah
“So which of your Lords signs will ye deny?”
Laa b shai'in min ni'mati Rabbina nukhadhib- 
We do not deny any of our Lords blessings.
The orange the pink the red rock mountain..
Slight dust in the air making the colours of the sky and land all blend in together
SubhanAllah
We got to Madinah al Munawwarah in 7-8 hours
Compared to 17 or so hours last year?
This was definitely the Lutf of Allah upon us from the get-go
There was no denying it
Tender Lovin Care
At its best.
Everyone in our group didn't have the same experience, sometimes we'd split up and on the way to the same places different things would happen to us.. 
Apparently one of the buses had broken down on the way to Madinah
So it was from here I started to count my favours on this trip.

Of course there is always a brighter side to such events though. Sometimes people may take a wrong path and end up somewhere they don’t want to be, but scholars have said that it perhaps could be that Allah is taking that person in the footsteps of a pious predecessor, so one should never consider it a bad thing.

Then we entered the city and I broke down when we got to share’ Umar bin Khattab!
Now that’s a name of a street! I was like, wow, that’s just so beautiful, I know it’s a little trivial, but it just hit me I was finally in the land that the blessed Messenger and his closest, the one they had so many years in, their fortress against Quraysh, their home, the land that received revelation. That very sky above me, that very earth below me..
Allahu Akbar!
This was the blessed land of Madinah.
And this was share’ Umar bin Khattab!
Lol, I loved it. I loved the street signs that looked like Australian street signs but they said Madinah this way, Makkah that way, Taif this way, Muslims through here, non-Muslims through there and streets named after the sahaba! 
SubhanAllah! It was so surreal! 

The Sacred City of Light


OhMyGod I was ready!

We arrived at the ELAF hotel, part of the haram itself and a 30 second walk to the masjid- or 5 seconds if you run lol, and we got in during the time of Asr.
It was actually quite a long wait in the foyer as we sorted our rooms.

But I took out my “dalail al khayraat” book and started reading. This is quite the interesting book! It was compiled by al imam Muhammad bin sulayman al juzuliy. A book which its entirety is salawaat on the messenger sallalahualayhiwasalam. Incredibly amazing book and how appropriate to recite it during my stay in Madinah! This book has an interesting story behind it. Once the imam was travelling and he came across a well which was dried out, he wanted to make wudu, so a young girl came and spat in the well and the well began to “well” up with water. The imam was shocked at this and he said to her, what is it about you that Allah would give you such an ability (ie Karama)!? She said I send much salawaat on the messenger every day. Upon hearing this the imam decided that he would seclude himself and write an entire book that was purely merits of salawaat and salawaat on the messenger sallalahualayhiwasalam- now coined dalail al khayraat. I aimed to get through the entirety of this little book while I was in Madinah. So that’s 10,000 salawaat and completing dalail al khayraat- my mission. Add to that praying 40 prayers on time with the imam at the masjid without missing a single one- this as the messenger reported peace be upon him:

Narrated by Anas bin Malik (ra) that the Prophet (Peace be upon him) said: Anyone who prays 40 prayers in my Mosque without missing a single one, then for him is freedom from hellfire, freedom from torment and freedom from nifaaq. 
(Reported by Ahmad and Al-Tabarani in his Al-Awsat
and it’s narrators are trustworthy)

Yes, I had a secret to accomplishing all this! ;) 

So the wait in the foyer ended and I got my key still in the time frame of asr subhanAllah and I ran upstairs to my room made ghusul out of adaab of entering the sacred precinct of the haram & ran back downstairs only to find umm AR sitting on the couch still waiting on her room key with a heap of the group still and I asked her earnestly can I go to the haram and pray!? Not that she would say no, but I was so excited I couldn’t believe some people were still waiting and I was ready, I felt like maybe I was doing something wrong or I still had something to do? I told her I was ready and she gestured that I may go as in I’m free as a bird!
*yaaaaaaaaaaay*

Whoooooooah!

I was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ecstatic. Didn’t care to wait for company or a friend to come and enjoy the experience with me! I had it set that I wanted to pray those 40 there with the imam I wasn't missing maghrib for anything! I was sooooooooooo happy! OhMyGod! Me in Madinah al Munawwarah, near the grave of my Messenger, the beloved of Allah, with thousands of people, lining up, ready to receive the adhan for maghrib in the cool breeze of the water fans and the most incredible atmosphere I have ever experienced in my life. I entered the haram the sunset casting sensational colours in the sky, the masjid was blending in somehow and there I was walking at a pace looking around, trying to take it all in, it’s so big and incredibly beautiful and it’s nothing like what it looks like on TV on the Saudi satellite channel! Nothing! Nothing prepared me for what Masjid an Nabawi looked like on ground!
It.
Was.
So.
Beautiful.
Here in Australia you subconsciously block out all these “haram” things
Inappropriate anything and everything that God and any good conscious doesn't approve of
But as soon as you step foot into the haram of Madinah
That entire weight is lifted off your shoulders
And you feel light as a cloud
Here you are Muslim practising surrounded by Muslims who are practising
Everyones in hijab jilbab niqab
All the men have their kufis uftans and miswaks
No one cares about their day jobs
Our day job is salah
subhanAllah
salah, thats it.
They come with their amazing cultural identities with them
People of all different sizes, tongues, colours, races, appearances, clothing
All there lining shoulder to shoulder
Reciting in Arabic together after the muathin
Praying together behind the one imam
It wasn’t the biggest cultural shock to me
But i can imagine it was to nearly everyone else
Sydney is multi cultural
A melting pot of all different cultures and ethnicities so this wasn’t the biggest surprise for me seeing all these different people
But most of those people that were there I’m sure they’ve never seen so many people that look so different to themselves all collected together in the one city. Ever.

1,000 seconds!

Everything we do out of good deeds in Madinah is x1,000 so we were warned not to waste time there, that we should constantly be doing dhikr constantly doing salawaat never stopping because one hour wasted is 1,000 hours wasted one minute wasted is 1,000 minutes wasted 1 second wasted is 1,000 seconds wasted. If you’re going to do shopping do it in one day or better yet half a day or even less. I didn’t even want to enter the shopping centre, but how rude not to go back with pressies for the family, so I decided I’d leave it till day 4 absorb Madinah first, establish my connection with it then quickly get the shopping over with like pulling off a band-aid on a sore quickly and as painlessly as possible!
Alas day 2 came and I needed to buy a black scarf, I literally ran into the shopping mall and on my way out- running, I slipped and bruised my shin, that’s how paranoid I was about getting out but, I kept running like a criminal on hot pursuit! SubhanAllah there is something so draining about the malls in Makkah and Madinah- and anywhere else for that matter, they suck the spirituality out of you, even though you are in the most holiest of places, it still has this magnetic force that just drains your spiritual being. You know you are so close to the Best of Creation, but when your in the mall, it's as though it made no difference that you were in Australia or Madinah, the spiritual high is gone. SubhanAllah. I've never really liked malls tbh. Alhamdulilah. 

The daily schedule in Madinah...

We would gather together and pray all the girls with Umm AR at every salah in particular area outside. As much as I loved the masjid inside, praying outside was my favourite place to pray the 5 salahs.

Daily schedule went something like this:
~ Pray tahhajud,
~ Wait till fajr,
~ Pray fajr
~ Recite surat Yasin together in a big group-
I was so happy because my tajweed teacher was with us; Allah created her to be a tajweed teacher, that’s just what she was born to do, God I love her!
~ Admire the most amazing sunrise the world has ever offered our eyes
Then we’d all collect together go the grave of the messenger from the outside- because Saudi has a phobia to women being inside or near a grave-
~ Give our Salams and good-morning to our beloved  sallalahualayhiwasalam and his two greatest companions Abu Bakr and Umar radiyaAllahu anhuma- subhanAllah!
~ Head back to the hotel eat breakfast,
~ Sleep till 10:30am then meet at umm AR’s room to have our daily prep lessons
~ Go pray Dhuhur together,
~ Go back to the hotel order room service for lunch,
~ Sleep some more till Asr
~ Pray ‘Asr at the Haram then recite Surat Al-Waqi’ah together
Strike up conversations with all the ladies around us in sign language
~ Wait around till maghrib pray maghrib and read Quran on our own or do our own dhikr,
~ Pray isha
~ Collect again go to the green dome send our salams to the messenger sallalahualayhiwasalam and his companions radiyaAllahu ‘anhuma
~ Make our duas then we’d go sit a couple of hundred meters away with the dome right before us and send 1,000 salawaat on the messenger together as a group...
~ Head back to the hotel sleep till tahhajud

Restart the process again the next day
It sounds hectic, but it flowed like water! That was pretty much the structure of each day and the most amazing thing about it all was that regardless of the fact that we had come from Australia- other side of the world upside down-travelled for about 20 hours non-stop, no one that I know had any symptoms of jet lag whatsoever. The structure of our days was like that every day from day one! SubhanAllah!

I was in Heaven on Earth, literally.


The Surprise Adventure!

The second day umm AR told us she wanted to take us to the rawda that night!
We planned to go really late at night meet at 10:30 and get in by 11:30-1pm to pray our 2 rak’aat
We prayed salatul hajjah that Allah make it easy for us
We collected nervously in the foyer of the hotel at 10:30pm
Walked to Gate 25 of the masjid on that cool night
That beautiful atmosphere always lingering and encompassing us
We walked in, got in sat together and were ushered to move up every now and then by the Saudi women
While we sat umm AR explained to us the dimensions of the original mosque
Where the Rawdah started and where it ended
Where the mihrab was-although it was past the barricade
Where the room of sittena Fatima alayhasalam was and the room of Aisha radiyaAllahu anha
When I was inside the masjid all I could think of was how wonderful the Saudis have made it
I kept saying it is as though the architects of the masjid built it with the intention that no mosque on the face of this earth will be more beautiful nor more grand nor more elegant nor more magnificent than it.
There are tons of domes all over the roof but what I didn’t know and I’m sure most people don’t is that the golden-orangey domes slide across and open to let the cool nights breeze in and aerate the inside of the masjid and in the morning they close to keep the suns heat out. Isn’t that amazing? There are even elevators that take you to the roof of the masjid so you can pray there too if you so wish.
The arches inside are perfectly symmetrical, the most elegant colours with beautiful marble basings and golden decorations with the name of Allah in every corner. TabarakAllahu ta’ala.

As we waited for our turn to pray in the Rawdah we sat in a section of the masjid that was open roofed
The masjid is beautiful,
But the green dome. Ah! The green dome!

There it was
The beautiful thing it is
SubhanAllah.

It’s so incredibly addictive to look at, and you may say it’s just a green dome, I even say that to myself; and its not the flashiest or most elegant or most heavily decorated green dome you will ever see, the paint is not glossy or anything, in fact its dull and flat colour, so ordinary and so plain, but there is something so addictive about just looking at it. If anyone was to ask me what my favourite colour is it would have to be the green that they painted the green dome with. I don’t know how to describe it, pictures don’t do much justice. I think there is something about the atmosphere of Madinah too, the fact that it is light upon light, and has the greatest messenger the greatest man the greatest warrior the greatest statesmen the greatest father the greatest husband the greatest companion the greatest slave of Allah buried in it’s earth and just directly under that green dome. 
SubhanAllah.
It was now our turn to pray in the Rawdah!

Where do I put my head!?

Lol, Oh the Rawdah! What to say about the Rawdah! The piece of heaven it is; everyone wants to get in and pray tarawih,  tahhajud , furud and nawafila all over ever inch of it’s green carpet- only problem is space and time.  Now it’s interesting to see how feisty women can get to get a piece of of heaven. It’s strangely symbolic subhanAllah; I can’t help but think of the verse in the Quran where Allah says

"And race with one another for forgiveness from your Lord,
and for a paradise as wide as are the heavens and earth,
prepared for those who have Taqwa of Allah"
(Surat Aal Imraan verse 133)

Well we definitely raced each other for a piece of heaven that wasn't even half as big as the Heavens and Earth! The Rawdah- which is literally Jannah and the commotion there made me reflect on this verse; it’s cruch time we see it and we want it, and were so fixated on it just as Allah described in the verse above so much so that we shove people out the way and ignore the que and lines just to get in it, boy do we want it! But for some reason were so lax in our other daily matters? How incredible weird! Wouldn't it be worthwhile if we raced each other like we did the Rawdah in our other daily religious matters? We’d be the best prayers, we’d have amazing khushu’, we’d shun evil and command the good; but the most incredible worthwhile thing we’d race each other in is high end morals and manners, like that of the messenger salallahualayhiwasalam. Surely this earth would have been a ring in our fingers had we raced each other in goodness the way we raced each other to the Rawdah!

But this isn’t the most fascinating thing about the Rawdah! ;)

It’s about the space of two average rooms put next to each other, very rough estimate. Women enter the Masjid, sit in their ethnic groups, are lectured by the Saudi women just prior to having their turn to go in and pray- obviously they need to devise a way of distracting the women from getting into the Rawdah and waiting on their turn so what they do is they lecture them in any and every language just before it’s their turn, it’s actually very impressive mashaAllah. But when it comes to that moment where they’re to go in you expect to see the Rawdah empty out and make way for your little ol’ self, but in actual fact it’s as though no one has moved at all lol, its constantly chocablock in there, Sardines sit spaciously compared to women in the Rawdah! MashaAllah! No complaints! How incredibly generous Allah is to allow so many women in such little time pray in Jannah on earth!  Here you truly realise this world works in opposite to what you think it does. There is no such thing as you causing a cause and that cause bringing about a predicted effect. This is a load of rubbish. I stood in the Rawdah, next to Sahar and I tell you the only green carpet I saw was that which was 3 square centimetres in front of my toes!
The rest was women.
Women everywhere.
Women walking in, women walking out
women standing, women bowing, women prostrating, women everywhere.
It was incredible
Where was I supposed to put my head for sujud?
4 times!?
Nowhere it seemed.
But Allah is the one that controls everything, side tracking here but for eg: Allah says giving money in charity doesn’t diminish your wealth but rather increases it, but how!? I’ve just subtracted from my wealth, not given!? Allah said it’s making you richer, you take interest it’ll diminish your wealth, but how!? I’ve just added! Allah said it’s diminishing your wealth. And Allah is truthful in what He says. Your wealth is affected the way He told you it would. Your mind lies, Allah gives and takes; not charity or interest. So if your in the Rawdah to pray better believe there will be somewhere to put your head, even if your eyes and your mind tell you there is nowhere for you to put your head on that carpet. Lo and behold when it was time for me to make sujud, I found somewhere to put my head
4 times too.
SubhanAllah.

It was actually really funny. All the women are praying and the Saudis know we all wanna take our sweet time especially in sujud; the messenger salalalhualayhiwasalam said the closest you will be to Allah is in sujud so ask what you will there, so here we all are, in sujud, in jannah wow you think we’re not gonna ask for everything? Heck man! We were gonna ask for everything. So the Saudi women tap you on the back and tell you to get a roll on, other women are waiting, kinda rude, but I can’t blame them with thousands other women waiting behind us. I was in sujud and I’m trying really hard to make my duas in Arabic and one golden dua Umm AR told us to make in sujud in the Rawdah was:

"O Allah just as you made me enter your Jannah on Earth
allow me to enter Your Jannah in the akhirah."

I asked for other stuff, but it was so hard for me to put the words together in my weaker language with someone tapping me on my back telling me to hurry up. Bas alhamdulilah I did it. When we walked out Sahar told me after I made my first sujud and came up a lady stepped right in the place where I had my head in sujud, had I stayed down for one second longer she would have flattened my nose! lol! Truly, Allah controls everything.

Around Madinah in One Day

Next day- I think- we took a trip round Madinah, we visisted Jabal Uhud reviewed the war with Sheikh Abdul Karim and visited the grave of Our Master Hamza RadiyAllahu anhu and recited Fatiha for the martyrs, I climbed the archers mountain with my Tajweed teacher, God I love her! Took some happy snaps with her and my brother.

We went to visit Masjid Qubaa- first ever masjid built by the Muslims! Prayed there, went to Masjid Al Qiblatayn- Masjid of the two directions, where in it Rasulullah sallalahualayhiwasalam had received revelation to change directions from Masjid al Aqsa in Jerusalem to Masjid al Haraam in Makkah, so it’s effectively a masjid with two qiblas. MashaAllah, prayed there too by the Grace and Will of Allah.

I believe the next morning we went to the Museum in Madinah. Now this little museum is a definite yes yes for everyone to go to. I don’t think people should visit Madinah without going to that Museum.
Nothing is lacking in Madinah because the Messenger sallalahualayhiwasalam is there, and had the entire earth been wiped out and nothing remained except the bare earth beneath the green dome then Madinah would still never lack anything. It will be complete because he is there and he is the only reason Madinah is what it is. Without him everything else will be just another adornment of the dazzling adornments of this earth.
But there is something my heart longed for and still does and it is none other than the flat earth, the rugged land, the tileless barren red brown earth beneath my feet that would have been below his.
The trees and the dead tree stumps before my eyes that would have once been before his.
The mud-brick houses broken and cracked from the intensity of the Madinian desert sun,
the mud-brick Masjid that I could reach out and touch that would have been once touched by him.
All of it there in it’s simple plain and raw-self.
Thank God the museum had replicas of all that though! Lol, no joke this place does what it can to fill that void. Had people not felt the same thing, this museum would not have been, but such is the love this ummah has for its Messenger that although we would grand-ify the masjid of our Messenger at every expense, we would still find a way to preserve the memory of the original Madinah as it was in the time of the Messenger. Here we had a little movie played that showed the original dimensions and appearance of the Masjid, What it looked like, who stayed where, what rooms were attached, the different stages of its upgrade, it even had a replica of what it’s like inside the green dome and what surrounds the grave of the Messenger sallalahualayhiwasalam. Its run and maintained by volunteers- students, who actually made little replicas of the land to show us the wars and how they took place, they had little men on horses lights that light up the path the enemies took and the path the Muslims took during the wars. I only truly understood the battle of the trench and the battle of Uhud here. It was incredible. I loved it all!
There’re two things I love in this world and they fit a perfect mathematical formula.
Amatullah’s Seerah classes at Daar Aisha + the Madinah Museum = Seerah comes to life before my minds eyes. It's beautiful!

          My Secret Unravelled!

Some few hours later I realised I lost my phone.
In Madinah, amongst thousands and thousands of people :/
No idea where it could have been.
I drank zamzam and made dua that Allah return it to me, wherever it may be, no matter how bleak my chances were of finding it again.
I called Walid during my time of distress and said omG I have a problem, what is it? I lost my phone- I honest to God have no idea why I called him to complain lol, but it was with him. Turns out I had left my phone at the museum and although there were two tour groups going on at the same time, the owners happened to give it to Walid and so is the magic of zamzam, my phone came back to me :0) Alhamdulilah.

And that brothers and sisters was my magic little trick. Zamzam! I drank that for my salawaat, I drank that for Dalail il Khayraat and I drank it for the 40 prayers.
I got through all 10,000 salawaat during my stay in Madinah SubhanAllah
I got through Dalail il Khayraat- first ever Arabic book written that I get through from cover to cover SubhanAllah.
I didn't manage the 40 salaats, I was missing 7, but Allah says everything is but by intention and people will have what they intended, so judging by how crazy I was about those salahs on time with the imam, I'm pretty sure I have the rewards for this in the bag! ;) inshaAllah ta'ala.